I had a wonderful time photographing the moon, planets and stars, on evenings and nights that weren’t overcast or raining, as this was an exceptional month!
August had a fantastic line-up of all bright planets in the evening and at night. The next time all five bright planets line-up is October 2018.
As well as seeing all the bright planets, there were several beautiful encounters between the Moon and bright planets, the planets themselves and the planets and bright stars which made August exquisite.
Also on the the 27/28th August was a very close conjunction of Jupiter and Venus, the closest it will be until November 2065. Wow! Weren’t we lucky! 🙂
RAINBOW CLOUD: Wow! I feel most blessed, as I’ve seen a rainbow cloud! I never seen one before, and it was wonderful watching the amorphous colours morph as the cloud slowly drifted by 🙂
“A mind that is calm, without hesitation and anticipation is meditation. Sri Sri
Much life exists on our planet because of the sun. Worshipping the sun has been a daily practice in many cultures, for thousands of years. Sun salutations is very auspicious and good for the body and the mind. The sages and preceptors have advised us to meditate during the morning and evening.
Be still and communicate with soul.
For, this is how we are made whole.
© 2010 Bridget Cameron
I swim with the fish and all the creatures of the sea.
I travel the strings of pearls to the treasure chest of wisdom deep within my soul.
© Bridget Cameron
Here’s a little fable and illustration I created for children :).
A pig one day, came across a field of daisies that were waving in the wind. He enjoyed watching the way they swayed back and forth, back and forth and hoped that he could too, sway gently like them in the breeze.
He stood in the middle of the field and asked the wind to blow stronger for him, so that he may sway like the daisies. The wind heard his plea, and began to blow with gentle wisps. The pig could feel the wind against his body, but alas nothing happened.
He then, asked the wind to blow stronger. The wind blew with more might, and the pig felt the gusts of wind brushing against his body, yet found that he still stood still. Then, with his loudest voice he asked, “Please wind, blow with all your might!”
The wind took a deep breath and blew out an enormous tornado. The pig felt the wind come, and began to move at last, and move he did, for he was caught up in the funnel of wind and was swept away to another land. When he finally landed, he lay still in a field of gently swaying daisies.
Moral: Accept yourself for who and what you are. Accept others as they are.
© Bridget Cameron
Hover Fly magic
Hoverfly, hoverfly, what do you taste?
You taste sweet nectar from the tangelo tree.
Drink it up, lap it up, gorge on it if you must,
And eat all the pollen before it turns to dust.
Your little adventure may be a feast to you,
Yet without it, they’d be no future for the tangelo tree or you.
© Bridget Cameron
Sun’s twilight reflections,
cast spells and inflections,
deep within meditations stare….
© 2015 Bridget Cameron
I’ve been trying to capture the image of one of these beautiful birds for such a long time, almost as long as my memory serves me. They are quite rare and to catch the fleeting aqua/blue as they fly past is quite extraordinary. It is only the male fairy wrens that have the bright blue aqua plumage, and only when they are breeding. When they are not breeding, they take on the brown colours of the female wren, although parading a blue/purple tail. Males are usually found with females, as they are socially monogamous. The females brown plumage support a blue tail and they have red feathers around the eyes.
AUSTRALIAN RESEARCHERS HAVE DISCOVERED that crafty fairy-wrens can understand and respond to the danger calls of other birds, suggesting that they have an advanced level of awareness about the world around them. For more information about this, please read this article at Australian Geographic.
p.s. Most images of superb fairy wrens have been enhanced to a more cyan/blue colour, yet their plumage in reality is closer to the photograph that I have taken above. I hope you enjoy his image! I most certainly do… :).
Here’s a little Christmas poem and picture I created for children. Please share it! I also wish you a Merry Christmas and a Happy 2015 New Year!
The Christmas Budgie
I have a budgie, whose name is Zoom,
He likes to fly around my living room.
Last Christmas Eve when I wasn’t looking,
He found my Christmas stocking.
He bit a hole, right through the sole,
Then, popped his head right out that hole.
Delighted with his Christmas gown,
Zoom bobbed happily up and down.
He looked so proud, full of Christmas cheer,
It even brought me a Christmas tear.
Then, he started whistling Jingle Bells,
Singing wholeheartedly like Peals.
All on Christmas Eve, Upon my Christmas Reeve.
© Bridget Cameron
Star Light, Star Bright,
Bring us Magic tonight…
© 2014 Bridget Cameron
To live life with a compassionate and loving heart, to see all people, animals and life as brothers and sisters, to share with kindness and to remove all fear of death, knowing that it is only a transition. These are the keys to our redemption. We are a dream, part of the greater dream, and our consciousness moves through time…
I think all we need is 50.01% of the population with the power to say ‘no’ to governments, corporations, magnates and media greed and deception, for a change of consciousness to occur on this planet! It’s this thought that keeps me sane. Let’s be the very best we can be, and build a better dream together! 🙂 <3.
I sit here in wonder at the immensity of it all!
As a mere spec in the universal mind
I have a purpose,
Ever so small my part,
However, I have a purpose,
And it is this purpose that gives my life meaning.
For without it I would shrivel up and die.
© Bridget Cameron
Last night, I had the great fortune of experiencing Tori Amos, live at Her Majesty’s Theatre, Adelaide, as part of her Unrepentant Geraldines Tour; which started May 5, 2014, with over 80 stops across Europe, North America, South Africa and now, Australia.
Tori’s spell binding performance, kept people silent for most of the concert, emotionally connected to the ‘soul’ of her experience.
She felt at home in Adelaide, saying, ‘It’s Sam’s home, so I kind of feel like it’s my home in a way,” referring to Samuel Adamson (collaborator on the London National Theatre production The Light Princess); which I think made her feel emotionally connected, adding richness to her performance, and our enjoyment of it :).
For 2 solid hours she performed a wonderful selection of composition and songs, such as Parasol, Bliss off To Venus And Back (1999) China and Little Earthquakes off her debut album of the same name. She also sang Oysters off Unrepentant Geraldines before diving into Pandora’s Aquarium and Father Lucifer, She’s addicted to Nicotine Patches, Lovesong, her heart warming rendition of Somewhere over the rainbow, Cornflake Girl and Bliss came with the firm thumping close of the piano lid! It was terrific, and the stage lighting set her off brilliantly, bathed as she was in a light show of multiple changing rainbow hues and stars.
With her distinctive and unique singing, song- writing and piano playing, just Tori Amos alternating between her Bösendorfer piano and her keyboard and rocking and straddling her piano stool. We were transported on a roller-coaster of emotions and experience.
Thank you Tori Amos for coming to Adelaide and sharing your music! You gave a virtuoso performance. It was inspirational and amazing!
Bridget Cameron 🙂 ❤
Here she is…
TOTAL LUNAR ECLIPSE: 8/10/2014 (from 7:45-11:55 pm. Adelaide Time): My photographic compilation of the lunar show! The evening started off cloudy, but fortunately the clouds dissipated and I managed to get some excellent shots!
The Moon does not have its own light, but shines because its surface reflects the Sun’s rays. A total lunar eclipse occurs when the Earth’s shadow blocks all the Sun’s light from directly reaching the Moon’s surface.
Eclipses of the Moon happen when the Sun, Earth and Moon are aligned to form an almost or exact straight line. The technical term for this is syzygy, which comes from the Greek word for being paired together.
Why does the Moon look Red?
The Earth’s atmosphere, removes or blocks parts of the sunlight’s spectrum leaving only the longer wavelengths. Because of this, a totally eclipsed Moon usually looks red.
A lunar eclipse can also be yellow, orange, or brown in color. This is because different types of dust particles and clouds in the Earth’s atmosphere allow different wavelengths to reach the surface of the Moon.
A total lunar eclipse usually happens within a few hours. Totality can range anywhere from a few seconds to about 100 minutes.
There are 7 stages of a total lunar eclipse:
For more information about Total Lunar Eclipses click here: http://www.timeanddate.com/eclipse/total-lunar-eclipse.html
Winter Daphne, Daphne.odora f. Rosacea: I’ve waited all Winter for my Daphne to flower, and finally, now that spring is here, it has bloomed. Hooray!
It’s perfume is magical, with its strong lemony, rose, honeysuckle, magnolia and hints of spicy notes. It adds its fragrance to highly perfumed Spring blossoms and transports me to tropical frangipani scented breezes… 🙂 ❤
* I wrote this article, as many people have come to me feeling guilty, hurt, angry and confused as to why they are mistreated and why there appears to be no justice for the victim! The following article is a spiritual (universal laws) explanation, which demonstrates that there is sacred or divine laws which do serve justice and are beyond man-made laws! Much overt injustice in this world has to do power differentials related to, economic/racial/sexual inequality/social stratification, religious dogma/doctrine, pedagogy, and a biased, dualistic and injust legal system that supports the wealthiest. It would be wonderful to experience a world without abuse, fears and the need to control others; where people are in control of themselves, and where we can be free to be ourselves naturally without power games, projections of our own/collective fears and victim blaming; and when there is abuse, the victim is treated fairly :).
KARMA IN A NUTSHELL
In order to truly understand karma, one must understand reincarnation, or the concept that each and every one of us has lived lives before this one and what we do in this one, will lead us onto our next journey into the next realm of experience. We literally take off, where we left off, which is no different to anything else in life. Please read, Scientific Proof of Reincarnation, Dr. Ian Stevenson’s Reincarnation Research and Life’s Work, http://www.near-death.com/experiences/reincarnation01.html
Reincarnation is a doctrine of Eastern Religions and was once part of the Judeo-Christian doctrines, prior to its removal by Church leaders. There were many references to reincarnation, astrology and the law of karma until the Roman Catholic Church removed these excerpts at various stages in the past. Two such instances were the council of Trent in 300 A.D. followed closely behind by the Council of Constantinople in 553 A.D, aided by Emperor Justinian and Empress Theodora, who insisted that all references to these concepts be removed from the Holy works, and the Pope acquiesced. They did this because they believed that if people knew that they had the power to control their own destinies and that the unfolding of their lessons occurred over many live times, then the Church leaders would not have much control, if any, over their flock.
This understanding of reincarnation suits a mind that is accustomed to time in the 3rd dimension, that understands time as a sequential event where one moment to the next moment creates the future moment that is ongoing, and where the past is something that has gone before..
I prefer to understand reincarnation from a perspective that allows for parallel universes or existences to overlap, in other words- worlds within worlds within worlds. For instance, we can dream of a future existence, and call it a premonition, or deja vous. The soul has prepared the person for a particular experience by giving a dream sequence of details, images, feelings, thoughts and words, not unlike watching a movie prior to the actual experience. Now during the experience we call it a deja vous moment or upon the instantaneous recollection of the event, a premonition.
How is it then that our dreaming self has forseen the events before the event has occurred? The only logical explanation is that our soul lives out various existences on different planes of existences in different time zones. Our soul can maneouver between the past, present and future, and it can even travel to other time zones and worlds. It is timeless… It is in actuality a multidimensional light being with incredible powers, and as it is the intrinsic life force of us human beings, we ourselves are really powerful beings.
Considering that we understand time in its linear format in this dimension, I will describe reincarnation from the perspective of past lives and/or ancestral body/mind memories.
All of us on our journeys to wholeness, need to learn specific things or lessons in order to grow. We also need to let go of any hindrances which may block our true expression. You see in this world there are many illusions which give us pain and suffering. It is part of the plan to force us to live a dualistic experience where we feel separated by God/Goddess, and to anchor us firmly in the density of matter. It is by reintegrating ourselves at soul, mind, emotional and physical levels that we grow and advance the collective consciousness of the universe and ourselves. We grow together!
At a soul level we are moving towards perfection, and archetypically we dream of our own perfection. However imbued as we are in physical vehicle we have limitations. One of our main purposes in life is to move on from our limitations by releasing the old more restrictive perspectives/patterns that hinder our progress and embrace a larger and more unlimited viewpoints. This is why it is best to see life as a game, and not to take it too seriously! :).
As none of us on Earth are perfect, we all have aspects of ourselves in denial at various levels of our beings. Psychology calls it the shadow, and from a reincarnation perspective, these are soul fragments which have not yet reintegrated themselves into the present moment. These denied aspects of ourselves can be repressed emotions from this life also, or they can be ‘carry-overs’ from previous existences, or be part of a familial karmic pattern. In other words we get stuck in time, so to speak, until we recognise these aspects and reintegrate them into the present moment.
Karma is often thought of as “an eye for an eye and a tooth for a tooth”. This is simplistic and doesn’t take into account the complex processes involved in human growth and evolution. “As you sow, so shall you reap,” encompasses the meaning of karma better, but this doesn’t really do justice to the complexity of this law.
There are two misunderstandings that contribute to the confusion about karma; that we are born bad and that we must be punished for our sins. Both beliefs are related to the Fall of Mankind in the Garden of Eden Myth, which forms the basis of Judeo-Christian thought. The concept that God punishes us, is a childish conception of God. God does not want to punish us or hurt us, for he loves us. Karma is a natural law of the universe and a tool for the evolution of humanity. It is governed by love, as is all life, and it cannot be born of retribution and punishment.
As beings of free will, the choice of working through Karma is decided by each and every living soul, as a lesson we choose to GET better with during this incarnation.
We all have karmic gifts as well as karmic debts. Karmic gifts are those talents and skills and good deeds that we have done in the past in which we are rewarded in the present. If for instance we have a gift for music, then this gift is a product of the work we put into developing our musical talents in the past. We don’t graduate into a virtuoso in only one lifetime! Examples of this can be seen in history from the likes of Mozart, Bach and Beethoven just to name a few. These individuals were composing beautiful music before they learned to read! And, there are times when others do us favors and good deeds without our understanding why they did them for us. These types of bonuses that drop out of the blue, are repayments for for our giving and good deeds in the past.
Karmic debts are those lessons and repayments that need to be made to others which originated from choices that we made in the past that caused serious injury, pain or death. Since balancing a karmic debt involves learning as well as making amends to the victim, the individual is often put in a position of role reversal so that they may understand what it is like to walk in others’ shoes so to speak, and gain the necessary empathy and understanding needed to prevent a similar tragedy from occuring.
If someone steals from you, you can be sure that you’ve stolen from someone in a prior existence. If you receive kindness, compassion, financial aid, or any other apparently undeserved favor from someone in this life, its not undeserved at all! You can be sure that you performed the same service for that person in a previous incarnation, and he or she is magnetised by karmic law to return it now.
Jesus said, “do good unto all those who hate you and say all manner of evil against you.. and if a man strikes you on your cheek, turn and give him your other cheek”. In other words, pay your karmic debts gracefully, without complaining, without bitterness or resentment, and the karmic burden will be lifted from you, provided your graceful acceptance is balanced with a positive act that will balance any former negativity. First accept, then forgive, and then atone. Become at one with yourself in the moment. These are the keys to heal our pasts. We can not heal by continually rehashing our pasts!
Consequently, through the process of karma, we are given lessons and challenges to overcome, so that we may have more moments of embracing the moment in its entirety. When we do this we live in the ‘sunshine of our soul’ and have moments of cosmic consciousness, as we bathe in the love and light of our soul presence which is connected directly with God/Goddess/Universal Energy.
It is up to each and every one of us to make positive changes, to grow and to love. For, if we truly love than we can understand, and through understanding we gain compassion and understanding of others, and it is love that gives us the impetus and passion to fulfill goals for the betterment of ourselves and humanity.
And this is where karma comes into the equation, for to understand karma we must accept the universal unfolding of life, and learn to make the right choices to bring more love and happiness into the world and to leave behind the scars of yesteryear.
© Bridget Cameron
Now, that the rains have come and Winter is here, Sun Dews have emerged, much to my delight. I just love watching their sticky pink tentacles capture the morning dew and their dinner. This particular Sun Dew is Drosera pallida, otherwise known as the Pale Rainbow, and I can see why. Watching the sunlight refract from its sticky tips, creates an abundance of miniature rainbows 🙂 <3.
This is a new painting I did to go with my poem,
At night, when the sea cradles the womb of the land.
At night, when the sea cradles the womb of the land,
rippling liquid rainbows upon the sand,
I lie back on the dunes and look up at the moon,
moving from horizon to its zenith all too soon.
I hear the hush of the sea, its murmurs and swells,
and hear its rumbling, moving waves crashing like bells.
I feel the earth pulsing beneath me,
I feel the sea moving within me,
As I watch the stars above twinkle,
in a space-time distorted wrinkle,
Upon our Galactic home, Earth,
She is our hearth!
© 2014 Bridget Cameron
Captured this gorgeous image of a black swan, swimming through shimmering star light reflections at St Kilda, Melbourne, Australia. It reminded me of Hans Christian Andersen’s story, The Ugly Duckling; as only when we have gone through our tribulations and dive into our darkness can we find our light and emerge a beautiful swan :).
Zoe, from Australia’s Greatest Side Show Act, spins a hoop of fire!
A friend recently felt so alone and used, felt that all his efforts to do good were to no avail, as no one seemed to appreciate what he did. He was ready to give up, and become as selfish and self-serving as the majority, well that is what he said. What can you tell someone who feels so low and alone? Or, was he just having a bad day?
I guess we all feel these way at times, I know I certainly do. It appears to me, that there are those who do much for humanity, and that many don’t recognize that effort or even give thanks for it. That’s just how it is… When you really care about something, you don’t need to be recognized for it, you simply do it because you are a responsible person! Whilst, at the same time, there are those who are a burden on society, who do little to help themselves and are rewarded for the littlest of efforts. This does not appear ‘fair’, but that’s just the way it is…
I think that no matter what category we find ourselves in, from the useful humanitarian, to the lazy, the user, the abuser, we are in this life together! So, my advise to the humanitarian who is having a bad day, is to remember to follow your heart and do what feels right for you, then no matter what you do, you will feel happy. Take time out ‘for you’ at times to refresh yourself, to do the things that you personally enjoy, and to treasure your personal worth, as no one can take that away from you! Be your own best friend!
Existentially, we are all in ‘this’ alone; we came in alone, we go out alone, although we are intrinsically connected with everything. A conundrum that we all need to deal with, and the yearning to dissolve and become part of the ‘One’, some would say is an infantile yearning back to the womb, and others would say it’s their raison d’être. I say, swim in your emotions, dive into your heart, and play the best part you can by embracing life!
Blessings and hugs, Bridget ❤
This is me in my early 20’s when I thought that I was really ugly!
BE BEAUTIFUL © 2006 Bridget Cameron
Feel beautiful, be beautiful! Do you believe that you are gorgeous, beautiful and a being full of love? If you don’t than read on, for I will try and help you to believe that you are.
At the centre of your being, resides a glorious being, full of beauty and love. The key to getting in touch with your beauty is by embracing it, loving it, nurturing it, and paying attention to your needs.
We are all beautiful beings, unique in our own beauty. It seems a shame to me that, many people think they are ugly because they don’t fit the image of popular media culture. The fact is, we are all beautiful, no matter what our body shape, colouring, or creed may be.
Whether we are young, mature or old, we all have a special something that comes from deep within. We all have an inner beauty, a spark that shines when we smile. We all have an inner perfection, an idealistic self.
Eighteenth century philosopher George Berkeley, proposed a theory of idealism in which says that the real world exists only by virtue of our apprehension of it-that material objects exist only as conceptions, or ideas in our minds. Thus, many of our perceptions are internally constructed, and the amounts of kudos we give them depend upon the amount of emotional input we give them.
Therefore, when we feel awful, we look awful to ourselves, as this is the state of our feelings, even if externally others see us as beautiful. Thus, it is our ‘feeling state’ that makes us feel good or bad, or anything in between.
It therefore makes sense to listen to our feelings, but to also have a certain amount of objectivity about them. What do I mean by this? There is nothing wrong in feeling our feelings, for they are our feelings, and they tell us a lot about our bodies, and our state of mind, as our emotions are linked directly with them. But, when we feel awful, it is not worth drowning in our feelings, for we have a mind that can direct us out of our depressed state, and into a more positive state of mind.
It is this synthesis of body, emotions and mind that link us directly with spirit. And, at our core, our spirits, we are already whole and complete and perfect anyhow.
The psychologist Carl Jung, talked about the archetype of perfection that we all have within us. Thus, although we may not see ourselves as perfect, there is essentially a part of us that already is. And, it is this truth that leads us to heal ourselves, by finding that well of love and beauty that exists deep within us.
So, how do we get out of our state of self-loathing and into a state of mind and emotion that makes us feel good and beautiful?
The key here is to unlock the crap, and recognising the crap for what it is, crap. Crap is negative self-talk, and the negative beliefs and attitudes that keep us bound in a negative state. By recognising the crap, we have the choice to keep it, or to let it go!
But, how do we do this?
The first thing to do is to listen to your bodies and to your mind chatter, and you do this by being still. Do you remember the last time you were really still, with no interruptions, and no people around you?
When we stop, we give ourselves permission to tune into our inner thoughts, our feelings and our bodies. By being ‘still’ we can hear the chatter in our minds, and can feel the discomfort in our bodies. Find a quiet place where you can be uninterrupted. Turn off your mobile, take the phone off the hook, this is your time for you!
I will now take you through a relaxation/meditation sequence, first taking you into your bodies and emotions, and then taking you into your thoughts.
Please sit up, or lie down, whatever position makes your feel comfortable. Relax, take some deep regular breaths, in and out, not forcing the breathing, just letting your abdomen rise and fall comfortably. Concentrate on letting your ‘in’ breath, take the same amount of time as your out breath. You may like to initially count, maybe holding in for 3 counts and then ‘out’ for 3 counts, until you have a regular rhythm that you feel comfortable with.
It is important to breathe abdominally, if you can, letting your breath fill your abdomen. By breathing in this fashion you fill your solar plexus with life giving prana (vital life force) and photons and breathing deeply, mindfully and regularly helps remove anxieties that you may be carrying in your belly. Your abdomen is the seat of your flight/fight mechanism, it is the seat of our instincts. If we are holding onto fears and anxieties, we will feel the tension in our bellies.
When, you have your breathing regulated, focus on stilling your body, making it as still as you can. Feel it heavy, feel it so heavy that you feel yourself becoming part of the floor, or bed, or chair that you are next to. Tell your body and mind to relax deeply.
Now, that you are relaxed, feel your body. Are there any twinges, or aches and pains? Acknowledge them, feel them, touch them, massage them and send them thoughts of love. At this point you may also like to ask your higher self, what colour is needed at those spots and send that specific colour directly. This can aid in the healing process for we essentially ‘light beings’ whether this be the photon particles that are part of our molecular structure, to our auric electro/magnetic fields and soul substance, as the ancients said, the body is a vehicle for the soul.
This now completes the body sequence.
Now it is time to listen to your body’s thoughts. Just let your body float in its own thoughts. Let your thoughts go where they will. Do not try to force them to go anywhere. Listen intently to those thoughts. Now, ask your self what it needs to know now. Are there any messages? Have you noticed any phrases that are repeated? Are you hearing a song? If you are, really listen to its lyrics. What are they trying to tell you?
It may help you initially to write down your most pressing issues, in order to remember them. You may hear your internal voice tell you that you are ugly, or that you are not good enough, or not intelligent enough. You may even hear somebody else’s voice tell you these things. Maybe the phrase was repeated many times, or maybe even once, but you are still carrying it around with you.
Such baggage needs to be addressed, for as long as you are carrying this emotional baggage, your affairs in life will be sabotaged.
Have you ever wondered why people don’t smile at you and give you the attention that you feel you deserve? If this applies to you, then you may be carrying around a belief that says, “ No one loves me”, or “I’m invisible”, or “only people who are glamorous get attention”. These beliefs are of course ‘crap’, for no one deserves to be unloved, and unrecognised.
Now, try and remember who initially said these inappropriate and false belief to you. When we are children we have many authority figures (parents, care givers, teachers and perhaps even peers) that influence our actions and our perception of ourselves. That is, we often believe unquestioningly the truth or the validity of others’ statements to us. If other people also say the same things to us and about us, then this only strengthens and conditions this false belief making it a distinction in our minds.
We all carry many of these around with us, some more than others. And, if we want to grow, it is imperative that we deal with our internal baggage.
There are many belief-changing techniques ranging from CBT and CBET( cognitive behavioural therapy, and cognitive behavioural emotional therapy) which disputes irrational beliefs, records and evaluate thoughts and beliefs to test validity of belief system, and evokes emotions from trauma that can be released in the ‘present’; subliminal recordings of positive thoughts that counteract negative beliefs about self, affirmations, visualisations, dealing with unexpressed past emotions in the present (gestalt therapy), psychodrama ( reanacting past trauma in safe environment with someone who had been where you are )holographic repatterning, and the use of light in therapy, as well as kineseological (body/emotion) interventions. A combination of all of them are probably the best prescription, however use the one/s that best work for you.
I will now tell you a story about how I overcame the false belief that I was ugly. I remember most of my life feeling ugly. I remember children in the playground teasing me, taunting me, bullying me and throwing rocks at me, and at times I was knocked unconscious, and no one came to help me. I remember being told that I was ugly by strangers, and I was physically and emotionally abused by narcissistic family members and so called friends. As I am an empath, I naturally attract narcissists, who look for kind people for their ‘ supply’, so there was a huge learning curve for me in learning about my own boundaries, and detecting those that were out to abuse me. I also can not remember my own mother telling me that I was beautiful. Because, I believed what these people had told me, and because of their nasty actions towards me, I felt that I was ugly. I also felt that I was not worth any attention or respect as I was not worthy and that my only role was to serve those that abused me.
As I grew up, I didn’t go out very often, and became a recluse. The more I became a recluse, the harder I found it to socialise. After some soul searching, I realised that the reason I felt ugly, was that I couldn’t remember being told that I was beautiful, and that those I served only accentuated my feelings of ugliness and unworthiness, by telling me about how stupid, or ugly, or hopeless I was… I could remember people telling me that my freckles were ugly, and that I was fat, and that I that my hair was too thick, that I ‘stunk’ or many other horrible things. At a deep level of my being, I literally believed these accusations as ‘truth’, and because I believed these falsehoods I acted in a manner that told others that ‘I was ugly and unworthy!”
I sat in the bottomless pit of self-loathing for some time, until I had had enough and honestly questioned this belief. “Was I really ugly?” On who’s authority were those people given the right to tell me such things, and why did I believe them in the first place? Why was I even listening to them, instead of my own internal authority? Valid questions don’t you think?
By asking these questions, I also realised that the world can be a mirror, and what we see is often a reflection of our beliefs and what we feel about ourselves; unless people are projecting their own insecurities upon us, and it is up to us to discern the difference! So, I decided to become more sociable, in an environment which was non-mainstream to test my hypothesis, as I’m not into ‘popular culture’.
By becoming active in a musical organisation ( full of artists who are not mainstream), I in fact found the opposite to be true. People would hug me, and welcome me, and invite me out, as they were seeing me as I truly were. Were these the types of behaviours that people would show to someone who was ugly? The answer was no, NO! And, the more I opened up to others and myself, the more I was welcomed.
It didn’t take long, for people to start saying things like, “You’re very attractive and beautiful”, and that is exactly how I was feeling. The more I loved myself, and the more I respected myself, the more beautiful I felt on the inside. And, the more beautiful and loving I felt, the more I attracted others who were beautiful and loving too. And, in time I began to see that we are all beautiful and loving creatures.
So, please don’t listen to those self-loathing voices that tell you negative things about yourself. Deal with the crap the best way you know how. If the crap is dredged up again, recognise it quickly for what it is, CRAP, and let it go! Develop a crap filter in your mind, where you can process it, and disintegrate it, even if that is as simple as saying, “No! I don’t believe you!” and then quickly thinking about the opposite and then doing something meaningful that will distract you from the negative conditioning.
For, you are beautiful, and lovely and deserve to be treated so, if you have done the work! The more you love yourself, the more others will love themselves too, for you will set an example to others to be themselves, for we are after all, in it together!
A little poem for the magician within all of us!
Shimmer Shimmer Unicorn,
runs through the snow,
through mountains and over hills,
with her horn aglow.
Chasing lots of rainbows,
she reaps what she sows.
In her dreams,
she often sees,
the future that often grows.
© Bridget Cameron
This compilation, is a snapshot of some of my Art. It moves between Australian Summer bushland, an Egyptian waterlilly and watery reflections, to fractal blossoms, butterflies, starry dolphins and children; to the strength of a dragon and a lion. The photo at the bottom left corner is me at one of my children’s fantasy workshops, where a small boy is being sprinkled with fairy dust… I hope you enjoy 🙂